I agree; I am sure I was off with those two but I had to research those conditions in order to see my experience at least a bit rationally. I surely can't extrapolate it over a whole organization, but can use it as an indicator that inner "defense systems" were already "hacked" in my view.

Sorry to hear you had to go through something similar! :( On the other hand I see that experience likely helped you to move towards entrepreneurship - it had a similar effect on me as well.

It happened after I was well into my entrepreneurship journey (though it had happened years earlier when I was an employee too), and though it was desperately unpleasant at times, I have no regrets about the experience :)

The major lessons were to get better at dealing with assertive and confrontational people (picking battles, avoiding taking things personally, de-escalating heated situations), and to realise that much of the unhealthiness I saw in other people was a reflection of my own fears/weaknesses and of similar unhealthiness in myself.

So the "processing" has involved working through all that and developing the weaker parts of myself; not to become the kind of monster I'd perceived others to be, but just to develop a healthy balance and calm inner strength.

This concept is well known among psychologists/emotional healers influenced by Carl Jung, described as "shadow work" or "shadow integration".

Strongly recommended if you're still struggling with this kind of stuff.