> But, the thing is though, this team isn't a bad one. I can make excuses all I want, but an experienced engineer joined the same time I did and is doing great.
I'm gonna come right out and say the thing most people here are too polite to say:
If your description here is at all accurate, you're on a bad team, a sinking ship, and your team is scapegoating you (and maybe other junior devs) for their downward spiral. You should be looking at moving to a team or company where you can grow.
Like, your manager has been gone since December?? Who's in charge? Who's assigning these stories to you? Who's making sure these mistakes don't happen again?
And I'm also going to say this: YOU have not caused any production delays. Whoever put you in a position to do things you weren't prepared to do is. But really, most likely: it was going to be delayed anyways and if it wasn't those incidents it was gonna be something else.
As for the senior dev who you think is doing great: either they know this is a fucking gong show and they're already looking to leave, but are keeping it professional, or they're coasting along for other reasons. Sadly, the "This is Fine" dog mask is one thing you definitely learn as you get more experienced in tech.
I'm gonna come right out and say the thing most people here are too polite to say:
If your description here is at all accurate, you're on a bad team, a sinking ship, and your team is scapegoating you (and maybe other junior devs) for their downward spiral. You should be looking at moving to a team or company where you can grow.
Like, your manager has been gone since December?? Who's in charge? Who's assigning these stories to you? Who's making sure these mistakes don't happen again?
And I'm also going to say this: YOU have not caused any production delays. Whoever put you in a position to do things you weren't prepared to do is. But really, most likely: it was going to be delayed anyways and if it wasn't those incidents it was gonna be something else.
As for the senior dev who you think is doing great: either they know this is a fucking gong show and they're already looking to leave, but are keeping it professional, or they're coasting along for other reasons. Sadly, the "This is Fine" dog mask is one thing you definitely learn as you get more experienced in tech.